the lost months...

Blogger MIA... Finding personal computer time with an infant demanding full-time care is far harder than I expected. He's just going to sleep all the time, right?!? Wrong! Or when he does, as do you! Hmmm...to blog or to sleep?!? Oh being a naive first time mom! I already feel so much more "mommy wise" since my initiaton 15 weeks ago, yet I've only just begun. I have dearly missed writing. I've said it before, but writing is my time in the zone...it's so refreshing to take thoughts and feelings out of your head and put them to paper (yeah, yeah it's 2011...put my thoughts on the computer, via blogging!). I seriously thought I'd come home from the hospital with this sleepy little baby, and spend hours staring at him while I blogged my every move to family and friends. I completely over estimated, not only the amount of time caring for a newborn takes, and most importantly the toll it took on my body! I didnt realize what nursing every 2-3hrs would do to me, or what it felt like to never get more than three consecutive hours of sleep at a time. I also had no idea what recovery would truly feel like. I pushed my limits all the time, and constantly had to be reminded by Cooter and my doctor that I had major abdominal surgery. I remember choosing to stay awake all night at the hospital, just so I could hold my baby and study his every feature, while Cooter slept, visitors halted, nurse visits slowed down, and time stood still. If I'd only understood the value of sleep! Or somehow bottled up that natural high I was on. Bottom line...I have missed blogging and vow to be better at keeping in touch! I need it for my own sanity... That being said..my family news updates are going to take a bit of a turn. Instead of my traditional journal entry of a significant event, with pictures and witty commentary, it's going to be more of a set of tales in the day in the life of me...mommy memoirs if you will. It takes a lot of time to upload the pics I want, and of course imbed them in the perfect places amongst my babble. Plus I'd say most of my readers are also on facebook, where my pictures are shared with the world (or world of people I deemed good enough to be my friend lol). Blame it on the fact that I chose to buy a desktop instead of a laptop...requires dedicated sit-down office time to blog. That's how the "lost months" were created. I wanted my first post-partum blog to be Tyler's birth story (nothing gross or inappropriately detailed, but I did plan to tug the heartstrings a bit). Way too time consuming. It will happen eventually, but for now daily (or maybe somewhat daily) me-isms will have to do! What little office time I do manage, during Ty's incredibly short catnaps (whole other blog topic in itself) or while he sits happily in his bouncy chair, barely leaves me enough time to take care of my Pampered Chef business (which I am so blessed to have kept afloat during this time) and constant downloading of the hundreds of pictures already in existence of our baby. Much of my time online is spent on my iPhone or iPad (thank you, Apple!) and most of it is done while I am nursing! So be forewarned, typos may run amuck as I am most likely typing one handed! Also, thanks to the phone, I no longer have the ability to separate my thoughts with proper paragraphs...drives me crazy! Hope you enjoy the return of the blog!